There comes a time in your life when you absolutely want to learn about setting priorites and making time to feel alive. So here you come, breathing the fresh air of a new chance, hoping the best is here to enfold you with all of its wings, but the truth is that the best is variable and as a consequence, it comes with rights, wrongs and 'what if's. You have to be reflecting on your life and your flaws, your mistakes, hoping and learning not to make them again. And so you will do until anxiety comes to you like a wrecking ball.
Hurting by all the different thoughts which invade your soul, then rape your peace mind, you understand in the twelft hour that people are divided in givers and takers.
Sometimes the givers become the takers without expectations and no one knows because nobody can see it happening, it just happens. You may have the courage to say that it is possible to see the givers turning in takers, but the truth is that the emotions are too agressive with your mind, so you are losing your control, your rational thinking,
Everyone will ask in their mind what's the point in living and loving without giving all you have. There is no one which cannot give a little part of them at a time of their life because this is the meaning on life, giving and taking in order to improve yourself as much as it is possible.
Focusing on giving whatever you can give, you forget that you give everyone to the point of no return. Most of us give parts of ourselves to family, friends and stranges that turn at a certain time in lovers and as a life rule, they turn in strangers again. Most times we do not ask for much or anything at all, so we do not get much back.
In the beggining, no one knows about the giver and the taker or no one wants to know. Everything is full of emotions, the euforia strikes in your face and fills you with dreams that get cracked slowly and certainly, but the simple-mindedness slowly whispers in your ears to continue till the point of madness.
I would like to think I am the giver, but who the hell cares that you give and what you give when everyone is blind? I do not want to be about me, but I just cannot write without subjectivity now. I cannot lie or deny that I want to give and take at the same time from the same person, but the truth is that I used to take more than give at all. And who the hell said that you do not give when you actually do, but what is given is not seen or received? Of course, I have taken a lot, but I have never taken for granted and I will never do.
As time went on, you realize that giving and taking leads to nothing but emptiness.
All of us are givers and takers, but sometimes the giver turns into taker and pretend to much in order to reject it just to feed their pride.
So here we are, people can be divided in two types, the givers and the takers. MayBe I am both.
